vicious flashbacks

sometimes the vicious creature plays tricks on me and reminds me of things that have happened to me in the last two years that seem to puzzle me I guess.

Like the time I went to get my class ring, everyone was filing in getting their fingers measured by some old man. I was bored waiting ( I hate waiting) and I had worn my Sgt. Peppers pin just to give a little pizazz to my gloomy outfit. My turn came and as the man measured what my finger size would be for my piece of tin that is locked up in my wooden made jewelry box now, he looked at my pin and told me if I loved the beatles, I said I did and he told me he would engrave my name on it for free. I was surprised and of course said thank you. The story would perfectly end there for anyone's life. How nice the man was, thoughts of "maybe I might be some sort of hidden beauty that has not come out yet" would go through a person's mind, or did the beatles just get me $30 off ? but this is not anyone's life, this is mine.

I guess I made the mistake of telling my two closest friends, of course one was surprised while another just told me bluntly: "he does that to everyone".

My one little chance of actually feeling appreciated by someone other than my family and friends was shattered. Thinking I might have that thing blonde's have? I forgot what it was, but its when they can get away with anything sort of eroded from my thoughts.

so now everytime I look at that ring, I will think of that sweet gesture of that old man but with an asterisk next to it saying :He probably does that to everyone so why should you feel so special? courtesy of the vicious creature.