There are no Lloyd Doblers in the world

There are no Lloyd Doblers in this world. I thought I had found a Lloyd Dobler, but he just sort of looked like him. When I was in college, there was this guy in my class that fit the Lloyd Dobler model, tall and lanky, with the Lloyd Dobler haircut, not the good looks of John Cusack but he had the humor and it made him attractive. He was a sophomore, so I guess a wise fool in a sense. He was over 6 feet tall and I always saw him in one of my classes with his hippie friend. I didn’t care for this Lloyd Dobler look alike but always found it strange when at times, he would look at me or so it seemed, (you know how I never know). Whenever we presented various presentations, aside from being nervous I would see him look at me, looking like a Giraffe with his long neck. Around Campus, I saw him from my window looking so out there, he looked like a rocker but I doubt he knew I existed. I don’t know if it was the different climate or the freedom but I got the nerve to e-mail him some crap message and of course, all he did was act rude. I would ask simple questions, what was the assignment for tomorrow? , what is your favorite punk band?, he would politely reply and not ask me a question. I would definitely call that rude.

Would Lloyd Dobler do that? I sincerely doubt it.

Well I didn’t want to be a bother to him or him thinking I was a stalker and I didn’t like initiating everything so I stopped the e-mailing and I sort of ignored him, I tried talking to him once but I felt all weird inside, like when I meet a Rock Star I admire. I don’t know if it was the height or what but my insides hurt, and I was just embarrassed with myself. Of all my dark periods, I think that is my darkest.

When I look back on it, I think of it as a hazy memory with a pink ribbon through it. I’ll always remember looking from my window seeing him cross the campus. As I recuperated from this incident, I listened to Vampire Weekend, and they put my situation perfectly in their song appropriately named “Campus”. Whenever I hear “Campus”, I think of the feelings I had back then and how I will remember my first College crush.

Vampire Weekend- "Campus"