Could the Vicious Creature be?

I was thinking and started realizing that the vicious creature could just be.............my virginity?

taunting me, ridiculing me, being smug.


I guess the only way to destroy it is to get rid of it of course.

with approximation of that happening in about 40 years or more, I guess the vicious creature will stay for a long time to boss me around.

and what is the deal with virginity anyway? people make it out to be some kind of sacred thing, a thing to treasure when in reality, it really isn't anything of beauty.

like some groups who think of virginity as that special ruby, a gem, a beauty of a gem that will be handed over to that special someone they will marry. For the girls in that mindset, they can't wait to hand over their virginity to their husbands thinking that "special night" will be transcendent, beautiful, fireworks and all but most of the time it will be a hard, rough, disturbing moment that will last for a second and hurt like hell. Then they will realize that whole virginity thing was totally fucked up and will spend the rest of their lives being a breathable manniquin thinking of pretty things as their husbands "do their business" and sadly those women will never really feel the pleasure they could have had.

I in my tiny little mad mind believe that this thing is a disturbance that must be destroyed and once the pain is gone, I guess the quest for pleasure can begin but I guess I have to get over that hurdle in order to get to practice sessions.

Hope I am as young as I am now when I become 70.