Where the FUCK!? have you been?

Hey people! how the fuck are you?

wow. since, february, I haven't been here. well, I was a bit of a hermit and well then I became an upright citizen, I would guess.

Well, much happened to me, I became a halfway decent person.
Did some work which I became utmost proud of and earned the utmost respect, became a people person and....
I became a mistress. The worst mistress in the world of mistresses that there ever has been mistresses. I would do gigi and all those other mistresses angry.

But that's how fucked up my life is, even when I become a mistress, it always has to be different with me. I can't get the usual "meet you, sleep with you, see you later" mistress template.

more on this later, so I will try to remind myself to write on here more often. My life was pretty hectic or normal?

back to face stupid reality again

well in my hermitness (is that a word? hermitness?) or isolation, I went half crazy, well crazier than I usually am. I am still half crazy ranting or rambling more like it. About everything, I even got into some fights well sort of, I exaggerate but yeah. wanted to punch some faces.

well, now I can work finally, hopefully interaction with human beings will regain my composure and live like a regular citizen and put the slightly mad in me behind the spleen or something.

"What Don't You Fucking Understand?"

Well as everyone has heard about the christian bale rant, It totally made me regret the whole devotion to watching all his films and him being all cute.

I always thought he was intimidating. In an " I go up to him and ask him for his autograph and being punched in the face" kind of intimidating. I rather meet Aaron Eckhart, he's a surfer, I don't think he'll hit me. unless it's with his surfboard or chin.

But that Bale Rant mix, I absolutely adore. The chorus, "What don't you fucking understand?" is just so genius! I might put it on my mp3 player.

I guess some good came out of it, but I think this event might push back batman three a couple of years.


Christian Bale Rant Remix

Closet Man

okay, so in my depressive state, I decided to watch t.v. In terms of adult cartoons, I only see the simpsons, and possibly king of the hill if I feel "country" but because I don't know why, because I was depressed and didn't want to change the channel, I saw some marathon of the show Family Guy. After watching some shows, shocked at what I was seeing, laughing rarely; mostly at the dog and the little kid in the show, I discovered something. This creator, Seth MacFarlane, I believe is a closet pervert.

I think he just hasn't admitted it, or maybe he has through his show.
Take for example how I figured this out, the show lives on flashbacks, be them real or unreal. There is a sketch, parodying the story "Pinnochio" where Pinnochio's creator, Geppetto basically wants Pinnochio to lie so that his nose will grow and go into the old man's butt. I do not see this flashback funny. It doesn't benefit anyone, only the creator, Seth Macfarlane. Actually, now that I think about this as I am writing about it, I think he might be more a pervert, a cartoon pervert than a regular pervert. Macfarlane wants to put things that are not necessarily sacred but untouched, into weird situations so that he can get some nether feelings in his nether region. Another flashback shows Disney wanting Minnie Mouse to take her clothes off so that he can draw her and as Minnie Mouse does, crying, Disney loves it. I think that if cartoon porn existed, Seth Macfarlane would be its number one fan. Since it doesn't exist (at least I don't think), He tries to put it in his show.

It's not for the audience, It's. for. him. The audience that watches this would either also get off too, feel extremely awkward, or just be offended. But laugh? no, I don't think so. Again, these things didn't offend me, the dumpster baby song didn't offend me, the AIDS song didn't offend me, it's just that when it comes to those cartoon flashbacks and I'm sure there are more that I haven't seen, it just goes to show that Seth Macfarlane probably gets off watching it all there on color t.v., when it was just a little perverted thought in his mind at first. I hear he's not married or anything. well, no wonder. He's a cartoon pervert.

sleep addict.

I don't know what I was on in the last post, probably cough syrup.


I'm not sick anymore but I am addicted to sleeping. I sleep 12 hours now, it scares me.

fucked up in odds year.

2009 is fucked up so far for me. I got sick and I believe I am being ostracized by my new friends from work. at least I think they are.

who knows. I hate it. makes me feel like I am a freak!

I know I am a freak, but I don't want them to know that.


as for resolutions, I have decided to talk like a Brit,and this constitutes, scottish and english. I don't know about the welsch and the irish. gonna have to think of that. but I don't like potatoes. :P

here in this city I discovered a british pub and store where I stocked up on sweets, crisps, bicuits, and scottish soda. I went to the pub and the fish and chips were ace! will try to go there again because my british sweet supply ran out and they had some very good biscuits there from south africa called "eet some mores" which were brill!

I have a month of nothing to do and I feel like I am going mad. $)

Vicious creature rarely seen in 2008

as I look back on 2008, yeah it was fucked up year but throughout it for me anyway, it was an awesome year.

This may be because I only just remember the good times so I shall try to talk about the good times.

-dancing on stage with a rock group from liverpool

-meeting and hugging luke pritchard

-getting a great job where I felt like I was making a difference and actually moving towards my career goals

-meeting some great people

-having the ability to have for the first time in my life, guy friends and guy acquaintances

- getting guy hugs from those guys and feeling "randy".

- having an album define my life, vampire weekend's debut.

- going to all those concerts, 14 in total

- discovering a great sci-fi show

- I still regret admitting my likeness to a certain guy but it happened and it's done.

- realizing that my career is happening to me in less than 5 years.